Day thirty-five and I’m still struggling to get back to my diet. I can’t even recall exactly when I went off the rails and am unwilling to read past posts to see, but I have a sneaking suspicion it is now approaching the two week mark. I find myself at that uncomfortable place of repeatedly saying that I’m going to stop eating sugar only to keep eating sugar. And let’s be honest here. I’m not talking about a food that just so happens to have some sugar in it. I’m talking about cookies and other items that are mostly made of sugar.
To compound matters I’ve made this a public event and now it’s not just me that gets to see how weak-willed I am. It is also the one hundred and thirty eight people that have stopped to take a peek. I will not lie and hide what I’ve eaten so as to spare myself the embarrassment since that defeats the entire purpose of doing this. Success or failure I promised myself that I would follow things through this year and so that’s what I’m going to do. Even if that means I find myself writing, “Day fifty-five I ate a cake.”
Sunday I woke up to a lovely snowy morning and two bright eyed and healthy kids who asked for something special for breakfast: doughnuts. The plan was for me to slowly drive to Dunkin Donuts through the snow and wind and get the kids just enough doughnuts to sate the two of them and no more. I would then come home and make a sensible and delicious breakfast for Ben and I. What actually happened was that I bought a dozen doughnuts and ate a good number of them after the kids had their fill and Ben sensibly had one. Thankfully the worst of the day was over by lunch.
Day Thirty-Five
Breakfast
What I Wanted to Eat:
- Something yummy and healthy
What I Ate:
Doughnuts
- 2 cup coffee w/half & half
Lunch
What I Wanted to Eat is What I ate:
- A handful of salt and vinegar potato chips
Plain Yogurt with Strawberries
Dinner
What I Wanted to Eat is What I Ate:
Trader Joe’s Cilantro Wontons
Trader Joe’s Orange Chicken & Brown Rice
I am decidedly less motivated than I was a few weeks ago and I can’t promise how this will play out, but I will not give up.
Admire your honesty. Know that it is difficult when you have little ones who do enjoy everything sweet and chocolate. I also know that you will get back on track.
Oh…I can so identify. It’s not like I don’t know what I should be eating. But once a week I cook with my gkids…and I keep it healthy for their sake, so why don’t I do that for me more often? Good question. Come visit…maybe it’ll inspire you.http://cookingwnana.wordpress.com/.
Thanks for your comment. I just took a look at your site. Yes, you definitely have some good ideas. I will be checking them out.