What I Wanted to Eat vs What I Ate: Day 15

I’m over the diet hump and headed into my second half of the month. I feel like I have momentum now to keep this up, but every day is still a struggle. Something as minor as a cold and snowy afternoon like today made me want to curl up and just snack away. I’ve also been sick with various colds for weeks now and am at the point of really craving “comfort foods.” Clearly my emotional relationship to food is very complicated and proving more difficult to change than the actual food itself.

I eat for emotional reasons and I also eat for seasonal reasons. Fall and Winter are my big food months. It’s not just the predictable over-indulgence around the food holidays either – though I did gain quite a bit of weight this year at their conclusion. My memory of and sentimentality for certain cold weather foods is incredibly difficult to change. My kids are clamoring for pumpkin and banana bread, muffins, rolls and biscuits… the list goes on. But I have trust issues.

There will come a day where I can make that stuff and have it in the house, but it is not in my immediate future. There will come a day I can make that stuff and eat a sensible amount of it, but that is also not in my immediate future. I am a sugar addict and cannot trust myself around sweets for a long time to come. I know myself very well and I know that if I were just to have the tiniest bite of something sweet right now I would fall off the wagon. What’s the worst that could happen you ask? My family would find me on the kitchen floor in a sugar coma and covered in a light dusting of confectionary sugar. It would not be pretty.

Day Fifteen

Breakfast

What I Wanted to Eat:

- Doughnuts

What I Ate:

- 1 cup of plain yogurt with lots of fresh strawberries
– 1 cup coffee w/half & half

Lunch

What I Wanted to Eat:

- Grilled cheese sandwich and chips

What I Ate:

- A leftover garlic and herb boneless pork chop

Dinner

What I Wanted to Eat is What I Ate:

Green Beans

Green Beans

Pork Roast

Pork Roast

Clearly it was a day of pork products for me.

Squash

Squash

If only the temperatures would rise just a hair. I could coast until spring if they did, but sadly it’s only January.

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