Thankfully today was a better day even though I appear to be sick again with the same thing I had at the beginning of December. I just got well. Tonight I sound like I have laryngitis and am compelled to clear my voice every few minutes.
I was hungry today since I skipped both lunch and dinner yesterday. All I wanted to eat this morning was my children’s Challah french toast. I didn’t and instead had a bowl of strawberries and blueberries with plain yogurt. Lunch consisted of the dinner I missed last night when I fell asleep putting my eldest to sleep. The afternoon called for more Genoa Salami snacking and thankfully that meat log has now been put to rest. Dinner was half a bowl of tomato and basil soup and an attempt to eat something called a “Vermont Common Cracker.” The crackers seemed exotic and intriguing at the grocery store tonight, but simply turned out to be giant oyster crackers with layers of more oyster cracker within. I like a good oyster cracker, but as it turns out not one that big or dense.
Shopping tonight was a different experience because I finally realized I cannot continually shop at Whole Foods and have any money left over for anything else. Our heating oil bills are approaching $600 a month while trying to heat a house with constant sources of fresh air blowing through it. While Whole Foods is yummy and makes healthy shopping easy, it blows through a food budget in one or two trips. Tonight I experimented with Market Basket. They carry a surprising amount of organic foods and some that I normally buy at Whole Foods, but at significantly lower prices.
Grocery shopping is very different when you start looking for products without sugar in them. That’s when you realize just how many packaged foods contain it that you wouldn’t think would need it. There must have been one loaf of bread out of 30 that I could buy. Cereal and crackers were almost completely off limits. It’s just as well I missed out on the processed food. My sense of taste is changing anyway. Since I have flour so infrequently I really enjoy it when I do have it, and in ways I couldn’t appreciate before. Cheese also tastes different and so do vegetables and fruits. I’m learning to savor the flavors of what I eat and am eating much less of it. Rather than just stuffing my face with random food throughout the day I’m actually becoming discriminating with what I want to eat. I’ve gone French.
And yet because it was cold and dark when I went out tonight I just wanted to fill my body with junk food. Each aisle had an end cap displaying Valentine chocolates, or cupcakes and cookies. Everywhere I looked there were boxes and bags of treats and I started to feel their pull on me. That’s when I saw it. A food item so vile and disgusting that I finished shopping immediately and never looked back as I made my way to the cashier:
That one bag of chips cured me of my desire to have “junk food” simply by emphasizing the junk part of the food.
What I Wanted to Eat:
- Challah french toast
What I Ate:
- 1 cup coffee w/half & half
What I Wanted to Eat is What I Ate:
What I Wanted to Eat:
- Little Debbie and all her tasty friends
What I Ate:
Tomorrow I’m going to try to go through some cookbooks and come up with more adventurous (and healthy) meals for both lunch and dinner. I also need something warm at each meal if this cold weather is going to continue for much longer.